Good Intentions

I suppose it all comes from my dad's unending need to sort things that for a while I had the idea of having 3 blogs. One that would be about my day-to-day life, one that would be sort of a "job" blog (hard to describe, but it would basically consist of a sort of thing I'd do, icons for LJ, or maybe movie reviews, nothing ever came out of that idea, really), and one that would be in Spanish.

Now I have this blog, where I'm trying to join the first two ideas I had and it seems that in order to merge the third I would have to switch languages. Hum. I *am* Mexican, and I do *live* in Mexico, so it makes sense. And having a bilingual blog is sort of not my thing =P why? because I do believe it would lessen my readership.

Having TWO blogs... that seems to be THE thing for me to do. One in Spanish (this one) and one in English (my eljay).

Will it be done?

... it's a possibility.

*ahem*

I have a problem which I'm well aware of. This problem is that I tend to think I need to explain everything that I do when in fact most people I know don't really care or just want me to see doing things instead of explaining the whys of my doings.

And with that in mind, I'm going to explain what's up with this post.

I'm about to go into a writing phase and I hope that in a couple of months I at least have a rough draft of something big. This is all because I kind of want to be a writer (I still can't say or type that without imagining Society frowning at me, gods, what is wrong with me? and why the "kind of" part? Srsly! I want to be a writer dammit!) and I need to well, write. So instead of doing my usual "argh, must get something NEW", I'm using my blogger account and being all writer-ish on it.

And yes, I'm completely aware I need a TOPIC for that, but for now I'm done explaining why I'm doing things and I'd like to worry about HOW I shall be doing the things I'll be doing later, ok?

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But if you'd like to help, I am open to topic suggestions =D

Plans for the future

I want my next boyfriend to be someone I want to be in a relationship with, not someone I grudgingly accept to be in a relationship with.

That may sound like something idiotic to say, but it's true. My first relationship was something I completely forced myself into. I didn't like him, but he was one of several guys I would've rejected and all of my friends saying "you're too picky" and things of the like got me thinking and I tried to force myself to like him. I tried to force myself to call him and sound happy when he called me. When he tried to break up with me I didn't stop him.

Then the next guy forced himself to be at my side. I don't know what he saw in me but he did and I was afraid of hurting him so I let him be at my side but I never really let him be close to me. He drifted away and I can't really say I miss him. I'm easy to read, so he probably saw that I wasn't really into it.

I care what others think about me way too much. Words wound me in silly ways. But as of late I'd rather be a bitch and let others think I have petty reasons for dismissing suitors than deal with the fact that I'm in a relationship I want out, fast.